Friday, February 24, 2012

One Month Gone

February is a lousy month, am I right? Sure is where I live; it's just cold and dismal and often rainy, and sometimes snowy, and right now, full of intense world-destroying winds. It's short but it feels like forever. And things always go south for me in February. I mean, life is nothing but ups and downs in any month. But I always feel like I really go into this massive monthlong slump around this time. January is the first month of the year, full of possibilities. March is the prologue to spring, and also houses my birthday. February is nothing. It's just this annoying period in between that I don't know how to manage.

In any case, I have not made a sound over here in quite some time, and it hasn't been for lack of trying. But I feel lately like I don't have much to say. I still don't, I just got sick of never updating. Right now, my novel (Berlin Confidential read it here) is going really well, enjoying a little growth spurt of progress and activity. Which is awesome. But it's sort of been at the expense of every other project. It's really hard to balance that much mental activity at once, and as my single-project focus gets better and better, I lose my ability to multitask and write short fiction. Which is sad. I want to write short fiction. I really do. It's strange, as I gain this incredible self-discipline for my big adolescent first draft novel, I am becoming more and more undisciplined elsewhere. I have ideas, but man am I lazy. Writing them takes work! Screw that, man. Netflix is RIGHT THERE. You see my problem.

I think the answer is to just suck it up and write something. It probably won't come easy... gotta stretch these muscles, and I'm out of shape... but maybe I can get back into some kind of rhythm. And hopefully I'll be able to balance it with novel-collaborating. These are both important things.

Anyway, this post is not very interesting, but I wanted to just say something. I hope to be back with a video or a piece of fiction soon enough.